Hey there

Yeah, you. The one and only person left reading this blog. I thought everyone had left. It's been so long, really what's been the point.

I have a question for you. How does one know what is right? Sounds simple, I know, but it's not what it seems. I think that most people, or at least myself, are faced with decisions everyday which have the potential to be life changing, to totally revamp the way we think about things. I think that every single day on this planet we have the oppportunity to turn it all around, for better or for worse, if we only have the courage to do so.

I, unfortunately, do not have the courage or clarity to do so. That's the sad truth of it, dear reader. No matter how much I think about things, it's incredibly hard to make those decisions which i know will affect me most. See, I second-guess myself. I doubt what I know to be right. In those few moments of clarity which I'm blessed to receive, I know the answer, I know all which there is to know. But, in the course of a few very short hours, all of those revelations are gone, and I'm back where i started. Not lost or confused, but simply unable to trust those things that I've realized are true.

I sometimes wish, I ALWAYS wish, that these moments of clarity would last for just a little while longer. Before I've begun to doubt the truth of the absolute truth that I've just discovered/learned/admitted to myself. Before I can (again) deny it and go on living the life that I've always lived.